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What would skinny people do?

Ok guys, Skinny Rules challenge is on hold for 2 days because I have class all weekend in DT L.A. which equals long days, a lot of stress, and a lot of eating out.  Not on hold like “hey I’m gonna go back to eating whatever I like” but on hold like “hey, let’s keep it real and just maintain in this moment of utter chaos.”  I definitely have been following Skinny Rule # 6 which was to eat an apple and berries every day.  That one was easy.  It’s # 7 I’m scared of and generally avoiding, which is “no carbs after lunch”!  Mentally I’m just not prepared to make that commitment today, so I’m waiting til Monday.

On the plus side, I lost 4 lbs this week!  Just from following rules 1-6! Not bad, considering I didn’t work out and I was sick. Usually that makes me feel like eating CHEESE AND BREAD, USUALLY SMOTHERED IN SOME KIND OF SAUCE.

The surprising thing for me about eating healthier and cutting out refined grains and sugars is, it’s not that hard (ok I know I’m only on day 6).  I haven’t had any major cravings and I feel full and satisfied after every meal/snack.  Seriously! Me of the night time munchies!  The worst thing I’ve eaten all week is too many whole wheat crackers with spinach and kale dip!

But today was hard.  Hard emotionally.  I guess this is where my relationship with food comes to light and I have to learn some new replacement behaviors.  I ate 3 bites of a friend’s crepe at lunch and 1/2 hour later, broke out in hives! Hives!  Can cutting out processed food change my body that quickly?

Crepes Ooh La La

Crepes Ooh La La (Photo credit: Premshree Pillai)

Not to mention the giant red itchy bumps on my hands/legs, I had a long day at school and even longer one tomorrow.  I came home and my boyfriend was working/hanging out with his sister drinking beers.  I was hungry and needed to eat before going into munch mode. I ate left over soup and 1/2 wheat pita with 1/2 piece of cheese.  I wanted to hang out and watch tv but I had to do homework.  They went to go get a pizza (pepperoni and olive!) with garlic bread.

Saying no to the food wasn’t that hard.  I could eat it if I wanted to but do I need any more hives plus a stomach ache? not really.  But I feel tired, lonely, left out and abandoned.  The ritual of eating delicious comforting unhealthy fattening food with people you love runs deep in my 1/2 filipina veins.  I am sad I haven’t really eaten any meals with my boy this week because our schedules are so different, and our meals are too.  I wish I had a partner who would go on this journey with me, but it’s unfair of me to force that on him.  Especially when he’s making so many positive changes in his own life right now.  Now I feel even worse because I took all my feelings, stress and anxiety out on him and was mean to the one person who I wish would comfort me in my moment of sadness.  I know it will take some time to get used to our new routines.  I know the more healthy food I cook and eat, he will see how much it changes me and start to feel the change in himself.  It just feels a little lonely right now.

Normally I would eat an extra slice of pizza/whatever I could find if I was feeling this way.  What do skinny people do when they are sad and lonely and feeling like they need a little something to perk them up? (please don’t tell me go for a run even if it’s true.)  And by skinny I don’t mean thin but healthy, happy people who have learned to balance their lives and their bodies.  Because that’s who I want to be.

The ocean always makes me feel better!

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ABCs of my eating

I’ve been having trouble getting started again, again. I did so well, losing 10 lbs pretty quickly in Jan/Feb, but then since then I’ve gained it all back and then some! I just need to buckle down and get my eating under control but I find it so hard. Being a behavior analyst (in training) I should be able to alter the environment so that I don’t engage in these harmful behaviors (overeating, eating out) any more. So what would I do if I were my client? I can’t just sit around and feel gross and disappointed in myself any more. My clothes barely fit me and I don’t feel good about anything, even though I’m working out more and harder than ever. i see pictures of people I know or strangers and all i can do is think about what it must be like to be them. Or I compare myself to them, which isn’t helpful either because I never add up. I hate pictures of me because I’m forced to see myself how others see me, and it ain’t pretty. I’ve been feeling this way for so long, I don’t know how to get out of my cycle! I need help!

Let’s look at this from a behavior analytic perspective:
Antecedents (what happens DIRECTLY before the behavior): Long day at work, frustrated, tired, don’t want to cook, don’t want to clean kitchen

Behaviors: Eating too many snacks before dinner, eating too much dinner, eating sweets with or after dinner, going out and eating unhealthy food instead of eating what I should eat

Consequences(what happens DIRECTLY after the behavior) : I feel less tired, less frustrated and temporarily happy. I don’t have to cook and I don’t have to clean the kitchen.

So what can I do to alter my behavior/environment relations?
Well, I think it will always be reinforcing to eat something salty/sweet due to biology. So, I have to think of ways that I can alter my antecedents to alter my behavior.

1. Don’t have crappy snacks around. Off limits = chips and sweets.
2. Stock up on healthy alternatives that I can eat when I get home and feel hungry
-grapes
-mini cheeses
-flat breads
-spinach/kale dip
-low fat hummus
-apples

3. Make dinners at the beginning of the week (or when I have time), measure portions and keep in the fridge. I don’t have to feel responsible to feed my significant other. He’s a big boy. He can manage on his own (I always want to cook big meaty meals for him)

4. pack big enough lunch and snack that I’m not starving on the drive home. Buy some low cal low sugar protein bars for emergency car rides (hell-a traffic is unpredictable at best, predictably terrible at worst)

These are some small, do-able changes I think I can accomplish on my own for the next 2 weeks. I am getting the Bob Harper “Skinny Rules” book soon and I think that will give me some more direction.

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